Glimpses of God – Planting Seeds

He was always there.

In the laughter and innocence of a child, in the seeds planted in the fertile soil of a young heart.

He was always there offering a subtle sense of peace, soothing and calming when the world seemed out of control.

She didn’t know His name, but that day, running in the grassy fields of rural Michigan with her neighbor, Lisa, she learned of Him for the first time, and the encounter would never fade from her mind.

“I hate my mother!” 6-year-old Lynda told her with a petulant stomp. Her friend’s shocked and concerned reaction stopped her in her tracks.

“Oh, Lynda. You should never say you hate your mother! God says to love your mother and father. It’s one of the Ten Commandments.”

“Honor your father and mother.” This is the first commandment with a promise: If you honor your father and mother, “things will go well for you, and you will have a long life on the earth.” Ephesians 6:2-3

Lynda had never heard of the Ten Commandments. It reminded her of the classroom rules the teacher wrote on the chalkboard at school. Mrs. Brown would read them out loud in a stern voice, tapping each one with her pointer that could easily be used to whack your back legs if you broke a rule, like getting out of your seat. But, this rule sounded OK because it was about love. She hoped this God didn’t have a stern voice like Mrs. Brown, but a gentle voice, like Mrs. Smith. She loved Mrs. Smith and her little flower garden she’d planted by the playground that she let you help with at recess and after school. But, she trusted her best friend and knew she would never lie to her.

She didn’t really hate her mother. She loved her mom and missed her dad terribly while he was gone in the war. She watched the TV newsman, Walter Cronkite, every night to try to catch a glimpse of her daddy over in Vietnam. She was just mad because her brothers were allowed to be in the Cub Scouts, but her mom said no to her joining the Brownies even though she was finally old enough.

“It’s just not fair!” Lynda pouted, picking a long blade of grass and wrapping it around her finger as they continued walking out to the old barn behind Lisa’s grandpa’s farm. They loved to swing on the rope and land in the hay, even though they were warned it was dangerous.

“Did she say why?” her friend prodded gently.

Sighing, Lynda mumbled that her mom couldn’t afford it with her dad gone to war. She had to work to pay the bills and buy groceries. She hated admitting it because she sensed that Lisa’s family didn’t have to worry about things like food and bills and paying for the Brownies and Cub Scouts.

Wise beyond her six years, Lisa tried encouraging her.

“You know she’s doing the best she can. She loves you and God loves you,” she said, smiling that radiant smile that drew everyone to her. Lynda loved the way the wind blew her long, blonde curls around her face. She’d always wanted her hair long and curly like that. Her own hair was short and mousy brown, which made her think of Ramona the Pest, who longed to have curls, too, and got into trouble for pulling a lock of the girl’s hair who sat in front of her just to see it bounce back.

Lisa reached out and took hold of Lynda’s hand and pulled her along the well-worn path they’d made through the grasses, Black-Eyed Susans, and Sweet Peas.

“Let’s go pick some wildflowers for your mom and my grandma!”

Lynda looked around at the wide open field she knew drew the mice that had relay races across her attic at night, which made her and her little brother, David, giggle and her mother squeal in terror. She laughed at the thought and decided that this God Lisa believed in was a pretty good artist to have painted such a beautiful place for them to play.

She tucked that thought away as she nodded and skipped off with her friend, and like the wildflowers, Lisa had planted the seeds of God’s love in her heart.

Filling the Void

Years speed by, spinning in my mind.

All the moments, hundreds of thousands of them, flashing in a kaleidoscope of memories.

The day I first saw you, a missed opportunity, and the night we met, realizing our paths were destined to cross.

Looking back on those days, like pieces on a chessboard, I see how God moved for a greater purpose.

It wasn’t just a love story; our chance meeting was part of His plan.

It certainly wasn’t a fairytale. It wasn’t without mistakes, outside of what He intended. But, he uses all things for good, I’ve learned.

Through all the detours, the wrong turns, the breakdowns, He was always there, guiding us, bringing us back to Him.

Molding us for His glory. Through the lean years, through the cold distance of hurt, and the closeness of shared grief, we were one.

And then, you met Him face to face. You joined our precious girl in eternity.

Now I fill the empty void.

With what?

With pictures in my mind, with regrets in my heart, and the promise of Heaven.

The wind as it blows Dad’s windmill you painted in Texas colors. The leaves in the trees of a garden planted in Mandy’s and now your memory. The tinkle of the windchimes you always loved.

The void is vast and too quiet, but in the stillness, I feel His presence and yours, guiding me on this new journey, the one I never imagined I would travel alone.

Our story began with God. It will end with Him. My story continues and I can only hope that what I do to fill the void is pleasing to Him and honors you, my love.

Above all, it points others to a life beyond what we can ever imagine or hope for.

I see you all around me. I see you in the empty recliner, in the tools worn from your craft, in the home we asked God to bless.

I see you in the eyes of our children, in the laughter of our grandkids. I feel you in the darkest moments of my grieving.

And, I look forward, Heavenward, for the day you welcome me home.

Live Like That

Rodney Hogue at Trinity Baptist Church Adult Freedom Weekend

Ever get a song stuck in your head? Of course, we all do. Well, for me, God super glues them in my brain. He speaks to me through them and writes their messages on my heart. Sidewalk Prophets has a song called Live Like That that I keep hearing over and over lately. The message is humbling.

Am I proof 
That You are who you say You are 
That grace can really change a heart 
Do I live like Your love is true 

People pass 
And even if they don’t know my name 
Is there evidence that I’ve been changed 
When they see me, do they see You 

I want to live like that 
And give it all I have 
So that everything I say and do 
Points to You 

I recently got to know some people who truly ARE living like that. And it makes me realize that I was just going through the motions. I was just “standing in the doorway” to what God has to offer me here on earth. I want to crash through that doorway and be can’t-wait-to-spend-time-with-Jesus SOLD OUT and tell everyone I meet about his amazing love!

If you can relate, if you are hungry for freedom in Christ and a deeper, richer, more powerful relationship with Him, I want to invite you to an event that could transform your life. Adult Freedom Weekend at Trinity Baptist Church in Mount Pleasant, TX starts Friday night, Aug. 17 at 7 p.m., introducing Northeast Texas to Rodney Hogue. He’s the pastor of Community in Grace Church in California and his focus is “growing up the saints to become transformation agents who expand the Kingdom of God.”

Jennifer Nickerson of Gateway Church will lead worship.

So, what is a transformation agent? Pretty cool job title, in my opinion. Like the Sidewalk Prophets song, I imagine my job description would be to make an eternal difference in the lives of people right here in my small world. I pray that I am doing that. How about you? Do people you work with, see at the ball game, or pass in the grocery store see Christ in you?

Another song has recently made a powerful impact in my life. It’s a remixed version of Shadows by David Crowder Band featuring Christian rapper Lacrae. It blew me away when I first heard it performed by Tennison UMC’s praise band.

DCB’s part is awesome, (When shadows fall on us…We will not fear…We will remember…the cost…We’re resting in the shadow of the Cross), but here’s part of the rap that really strikes a chord here:

And I will boast in the cross, I boast in His name
I will boast in the sunshine, boast in His reign 
What’s my life if it’s not praising You
Another dollar in my bank account of vain pursuit, I do
That count my life as any value or precious at all
Let me finish my race, let me answer Your call

Will you answer His call?

Come hear Ps. Hogue and find out how to LIVE LIKE THAT at Freedom Weekend.  The cool thing is, it doesn’t end with the three-day conference. Trinity is launching a new ministry to disciple these new “transformation agents.”

Freedom Ministry is led by Judy and Steve Capps.  The ministry’s focus is to “help Christians walk in all the Freedom Christ paid for them to have and to learn how to be an influence in the lives of others for the advancement of God’s Kingdom.”

Freedom Ministry classes, which are open to everyone, begin Wed., Aug. 29.

You can register for the conference online at www.trinitytx.org or in the Fellowship Hall at the church.

Boast in the Cross. Answer His Call. Live. Like. That.

Narrow Back Roads

Photo by Erin Bowers

If there is one thing this self-proclaimed city girl has learned since moving to my small Northeast Texas town from DFW, there are lots of back roads to get lost on. Winding, curvy Farm-to-Market roads where texting is impossible, county roads that the locals don’t know the numbers of and give you landmark directions to; and dead-end roads that I will always find when I don’t know exactly where I’m going.

As a mom trying to impart some wisdom to my 21-year-old son, Matthew, and my daughters, Mandy, 23 and Kristin, 16, those back roads are a good reminder of the path that God wants us to take in life.

Matthew 7:13-14 shows us there is only one route in the GPS on your way to Heaven: “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.”

They have all made the choice to follow that path, so I know their destination is secure, but I worry, of course, about them getting lost along the way. Their eyes roll back in their heads as soon as I start a sentence with, “When I was your age…”

But, what they can’t see now is that I have BEEN THERE, DONE THAT!

I am at a crossroads in my life, personally, professionally and spiritually. I lost my mom not long ago and have had a lot of time to think about what she and others in my life taught me and the destructive 4-lane highways and detours I took to get back to this place of narrow tree-covered roads. A warming glimmer of sunlight has found its way through the leaves, a reminder of God’s promise to never leave me. That’s the truth I want them to hold onto!

I hope that I have imparted lessons that will stay with them as they follow their dreams. I hope that I have taught them how to keep this narrow road in their sights. Will they hear a voice – possibly with a female British accent – saying “Re-calculating” or “Make a U-turn” when they veer off track in their lives?

I just have to trust that I have been the best mom I can be and that even with the “Crazy Lady” label they have so lovingly donned me with, they have learned to follow God’s path.

My prayer is that if they veer off the roadway, take a detour, miss the exit and have to make a U-turn – my signature move – or find one of those hopeless dead ends, they will turn on God’s GPS and always find their way home to these narrow back roads.